Love is Patient

I've always felt like I was a patience person. 

I mean I take care of other people's children for living...

And I like it!

But there is a whole new genre of patience when it comes to 3am belly aches!

Its sad really

Esther is crying because her stomach hurts and I'm crying because I just want to sleep.

It's hard not to be really frustrated.

Not frustrated at Esther. Frustrated at the fact that her stomach hurts and its 3am!

I knew I needed something to calm my heart. I can't control her belly aches. 

There is nothing I can do except soothe her.

So I needed to get rid of the frustration. 

And be patient. 

The best place to look for help in all situations is the bible. 

So I looked! 

( I honestly couldn't find anything so I had to ask my dad. I'm still learning.)

What stuck was 1 Corinthians 13:4.

You should really look this verse up! It's all about what love truly looks like. (Google it!)

The part that I most needed at 3am was

Love Is Patient. 

I have to remind myself love is patient. 

Lets be honest. 

I sometimes have to remind myself several times.

Love is patient.

Love is patient.

Love is patient.

Love!

Is!

Patient!

God is so good. And His word is powerful! Repeating those words set my heart at ease.

They remind me that I'm not just a college student.

I'm the mom. I'm the grown up. And I have to get a grip.

Because Esther is a child. 

And I can't control that she has belly aches. 

Just like I won't be able to control the fact that she chose to throw a fit in the middle of Target. 

Esther relies on me and my attitude.

There for I need to remember love is patient. 

And teach her love is patient. It all falls on my shoulders and I have to step up.
I have to do what is best for her.
Even if it means working on myself.
Which is HARD!